I don’t understand what I do to open myself up to unwanted attention. Do I look weak and broken? Do I look like “I’m asking for it?” Is it something in my written demeanor or tastes? Can I do something to prevent your “pain” before I inflict it upon you with my inability to understand the nature of attention I was receiving? 

I have revised my approach in dealing with people over the past year in lieu of issues of this nature and nothing has changed. Perhaps playing the blame card doesn’t work. I have listened more carefully and learned more social cues. I have created more distance in between myself and other people. I have demarcated bounds of information I want to share. Nothing changes. It still happens.

Why don’t people take my plain words to heart? You can idealize a person, but you can never change the reality. I’ll know love whenever I see it. I don’t need to be persuaded, coddled or pushed into a corner.

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